This is me after a morning work out with my hubby this morning. This is me feeling raw and vulnerable after looking in a mirror at the gym this morning and truly seeing "me".
What I saw was a woman who is tired, physically and emotionally. I am feeling older than I really am. The reflection of a woman who " talks the big talk", but feels like she let herself go physically and spiritually. I see it in my face, the way I stand and carry myself. I've let my pride in who I am wash away. I am seeing the double chin, the wrinkles, the "bat wings" on my upper arms and the oh to big butt and hips. At one time I viewed myself at a "Goddess", a woman who could conquer the world. Now I feel old and worn down and tired, oh so freaking tired. I miss my days of feeling loud and proud. Feeling confident in myself and my not so perfect body. I use to love that I was a curvy and voluptuous gal. I desire to create those feelings again and you know what, I will do it.
I'll walk with pride and power in my step. Feeling confident in who I am. Be proud of my journey I have been on. That is all the ups and downs, the good and the bad. I will embrace my beauty and my flaws. Accept new challenges and be more open to truly living outside the box. To listen to my body and what it really needs. Treat my body as a temple and nourish it with love, positivity, knowledge, and healing physically and mentally.
One can not truly help out another until one truly helps oneself. This is my time, to invest in me. To make myself a priority and be proud of who I am and all that I can accomplish in life. I am going to stop wishing and start doing. This is my journey to finding my true self and to rediscover all of my possibilities and acceptance of who I truly am.
So please join me along the way. I love all your support, comments, your journeys and stories. Quite simply, I love my tribe.
💗NYTS
