I have an addiction..... Carbohydrates and the are my deliciousness muse.

I grew up in a home based in a blend of Italian and Norwegen cooking as well as American style.  Coming home after school as a kid my mom made home made chocolate chip cookies, rickety uncle bars or cupcakes.  Those smell where comforting after a day at school.  It was what moms did and still do for their kids.  After ice skating practice  we would come home to dinners of pasta and meat balls, burgers, rice, baked potatoes and roast beef.   We ate well as my grandparent had a farm and we got fresh beef every year in our freezer.  I never knew you got meat from the store, we got it from grandpas as a kid till he sold the family farm for a simpler life.

Carbohydrate filled meals where a part of our lives.  Nonna made Gnocchi from scratch on special occasions, home made pies while the men bailed hay in the fall, she made the best pancakes on her well seasoned cast iron fry pan on Sunday mornings and the cookie tin was always full for when us kids came over to visit which was a lot when I was younger.   I had a wonderful & very active childhood and most of my memories are surrounded by the foods we ate. 

When I grew up and moved out on my own, my boyfriend ( who's now my hubby) and I didn't have much money for groceries so we ate a lot of pasta, rice based dishes and grill cheese and soup dinners.  It was our comfort foods as kids.  It also was quick and easy to say the least when you are on a fixed income.  This way of eating has stayed with us through the years as we had kids and these where staples in our diet, however we no longer excersized like we did when we where younger to burn off these meals. 

I at 42.5 years old have come to a point in my life where I need to make amends with my body.  I need to face the truth, I have a food addiction to Carbs.  Plain and simple.  This addiction coupled with lack of excersize and bouts of moment of depression got me to where I am with my weight. It's not overly bad but it's not good either.  I need to make changes to my relationship with this food group.  This sweet & savory food group.  Think about it, there are cookies, cakes, pastas, breads, buns, rice, white potatoes, doughnuts, bars, I could go on with this list but it would make me hungry.

I'm also an emotional eater.  I turn to this food group for the various amounts of comfort food it provides.  Having a bad day, eat a plate of pasta, fight with a loved one , get a doughnut, friends over for drinks, cheese and crackers.  Happy or sad I reach for these foods. 

I know I'm not the only human being on this planet who has this addiction.  It has taken me a very long time to be honest with myself and the ones I love that this is a problem for me.  Now I'm sure you have to ask me if I'm giving up on carbs completely?  My answer is simply No.  We do need carbs in our life to function.  I am however becoming more aware of how much I eat and lessening the amout I'm consuming each day.  I have tried to give up carbs in the past and it didn't work well.  I did loose weight but gained it all back once I ate carbs again.  So the lesson I'm learning now is to eat in moderation.  It will not be easy but I know I can do it as it's just not an option anymore for me this carb filled lifestyle.

So instead a whole baked potato I'll have 1/2 of one.  No more full plates of pasta and sauce, but 1/4 of my plate, 1 cookie instead of 3.  You get the point I'm try to get across.  Also I'm trying to cut out sugar drinks like pop as it's just not good for you unless I'm craving a rum and coke drink (yum!).  I'm still going to enjoy the foods I love as hey I only have one time on this planet and I want to enjoy it, but be healthier about it. 

I hope my honesty on this topic helps someone else on their journey.  I'm a plus size girl loves her womanly curves, but also a woman who needs to shave a few of the sizes off my frame not for vanity reasons but purely based on my health and wellness. 

I wish you all love and good health. ❤️️️️️️️NYTS